Smile…My Therapy Song

I can never listen to this song just once when I hear it, it used to be because of my sheer love for the song but now it holds so much sentimental value to me. Nat King Cole was perhaps my Uncle Jeff’s favorite or damn sure one of them and he used to listen to him constantly, so much so that I think it’s deeply branded on/in me and my cousins. When he was sick and dealing with his cancer one day we talked and he wasn’t having one of his better days and he told me “Yo man, when I’m out, if you ever get sad or down about it listen to Smile by Nat and think about us driving to get Red Tower burgers or playing Sega Genesis…f*uck all that sad sh*t!!!”. Yeah Jeff had such an eloquent way with words but he was leaving me with something to comfort me when he was gone. After he passed it took me awhile to actually go back and listen to the song, I would put my phone on shuffle and it would come on but I’d skip past it because I knew it would make me emotional. But now I’ve reached a point where it’s so therapeutic to me to listen to Nat’s words…”Smile though your heart is aching, smile even though it’s breaking, when there are clouds in the sky…you’ll get by, if you smile through your fear and sorrow, smile and maybe tomorrow…you’ll see the sun come shining through, for you” and man the words to this song hit home so much and help me tremendously now. Still not easy with him being gone, even the other day my oldest told me that she really misses him and his laugh which meant the world to me but I told her he is still with us everyday, we carry his name, his memory, his life everyday that we speak of him, when we think of him, when we miss him. So ock thanks so much for recommending “Smile” as my therapy for losing you, and when I hear Nat I actually imagine you saying these things to me in your own explicit kind of way…love and miss you Jeff and know that I may cry a bit at times (like now as I’m writing this) but more often than not I’m smiling….


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